Hey people, this cute little girl, is nurul. She my sweetest gf that i ever had in my life, care and concern about me. Thanks baby ! We just be together this month but i trust her la although i just get to know her not much well, We meet on saturday at esplanade with keciq. Ferst wanted to meet lola and aky but in the end cancel,gue malu jumpe dorg. We torn at esplanade until morning and catch ferst train keciq come 1 plus am i think so can;t remember she late! she a liar ! Nahh its okay with me lucky got nurul with me. About me with yaan we officially break up and we will never and ever patch back cause i can't stand it with her anymore. So guys who know us listen that! Im tired to be with her and keep crying for her and she don't even care for me. Life need to move on babe i won't let people bullying me or what. One time can la more than that i will do back to you. My heart were so painfull cause of her attitude. No one else can release my heart pain! Haiish..

Going to be 1 year but is still had a misunderstanding between us, i couldn't bare it i can't accepts all this fucking happens. I really hope you won't do such things that i don't like and you won't hurt my feelings, i know you never love me anymore, you hate me as what you say to me always your love for me has fade away, its hurts me alots. You lied to me everything but i still give you many chances and i don't know why must i give you chance although you hurt me alots, i don't care what people wana says about me i give you many chance cause i love you & i can't live without you baby, pls baby i love you alots and alots with all my heart i don't want to lose you at any times and day baby. Pls baby if you read this please i beg you chance your attitude baby i will always giving you chance but don't ever and ever take for granted i also have a heart and i want my life to be happy always i don't want to be sad dear.

Its been a long time im not update. Is not that im busy or what its just that there nothing to update here. This month im feel so good im teach my friends malay dance and this thursday can't wait for roller coster ride and many more fun games but i have to ride all the games at sentosa, weheee! This thursday is new opening and it cost $66 for each person. All together will be 8 person will be going! Serious i can't wait for it! And sure i will take picture of me and that place. This month will be so tired cause of outing and dance practice. girls, wish you all the best for this saturday, do perform well kay darlinq? I love you girls. Me with my gf still be fine and be together till now 10month going to 11month. I really hope our relationship will be last long forever, cause i can't live without her and its hard for me to leave her. Baby ku, I sayaanng youuu foreveeer :)

Duhai sayang di mana kata janji mu dulu sayang, berjanji sehidup-semati mengapa kini engkau berubah sikapmu dengan sekelip mata? Dulu sering sayang menyangi mengapa kini sering berperang, aku tak mahu kehilanganmu aku sayang kau. Aku mohon padamu sayang maafkan lah diri ku ini apa perbuatan aku selama ni terhadap kau, jangan lah kau ragu2 dengan cinta aku ini. Menlinangan airmataku bila ku teringat kenangan masa kita baru mencintai sama-sama,kenangan bila kita hidup bahagia dan sekarang cinta kita mudah beribah begitu saja, Aku merindui kamu sangat-sangat tapi kadang2 engkau tak pernah peduli tentang aku, tidak akan aku ubah segala janji yang aku lafazkan pada mu dulu, adakah cinta yang aku beri tidak cukup bagimu sayang? Aku ingin mengembusi segala perbuatan aku dan dosa2 aku terhadap mu maafkan lah aku sayang, berat sekali hati aku untuk melepaskan mu sayang

Yesterday had my last day slept with girlfriend. I cried many tears non-stop yesterday.
I hug her tightly and kiss her .
When i walk alone i keep turning back with my tears look at her, idk why its hard for me to leave her just for one day and i cried many tears what will happen if we will not be together forever what going on with me later?

baby message me:
GF- cheer up bby.. i gonna miss u alot syg.
Me-i gonna miss you too bby ! I love you.
GF-Love you too.
Me- U're r my girl. Antara kte ade byk kenangan kaan,macam makan2 same2,tido2 same2 ape kyte buat sumer same2 kaan. but now back to square 1 everything we did it alone.
GF-Yup me too bby..our memories will still be there bby..

Now time is 1.47 and i still not sleep yet now at chalet downtown east my aunt chalet i feel my eyes want to close but i can't i don't know why(haiish). My mum not sleep yet and my little cousin, she waiting for me after i settle my things on lappy. Had a fun yesterday we play games and the games was so stupid games not logic the person must do acting and i have to guess ferst i was so stupid but atlast i get the answer and i won the prizes yeaaahhh! After that, we play music chair and i lose but its okay be a small kid for that day.

I just read this fucking girl blog, she still not satisfy with me and my girlfriend and i don't know why i told her many times that i don't want to fight with her or what no time for me all that fucking shit den she told me with her fucking sweetalk voice to take good care of my GF, and don't test her patient she has a limit, wowww takot nyerr don't just think of yourself that what you say to me, but have you ever and ever think of me that i also have a heart and a feelings don't you know that? huh? Don't you thinks you have a famous lesbian friends and you want to show off, oh my god your attitudes just like a small kid like 4 years old(i was laughing gigglely). Kau pikir kawan2 kau yang kat luar tu blh tolong kau byle kau tgh susah? tgk laa kau susah macam mane btol tak? i just message wawa from tagged cause i can't take it with you anymore aku nie binatang ke ape kau panggil aku betine? kau tu sepatut nye akupanggil kau betine kat blog atau panggil kau itam ,jad BETINE ITAM pahaaam ?? okayy later afternoon wait for baby to come back here and go theme park wooohooo i can't wait to ride cabury 360 degrees woohooo!! okay laa im off, sayonara friends =)

Sayang, i wish you have a good journey to batam kay sayang. Too bad i can't follow you to batam, i really wanna go but... errr you know i know kan. I miss you like hell man i feel like want to cry duhh, since i walk out from house i felt difficult for me to leave you idk whyyyyy! Must wait for you to come back here on valentine day if not you come back here on monday, lucky gegerl talks to her mum she say she want to celebrate her valentine with her boifyy, thankx gurl. For me sunday is too long to wait haha, i hope you enjoy your outing kay sayang, sayang youu byk2. kening naek2 :) I will hug you tightly when i meet you on sunday baby. Comferm2 you penat kan byler aleq sini. i know you,you know me kaan? I will buy for you something for our valentine day okaay. Next wednesday start work back at arnold with girlfriend, manager told us she will put us everyday 12 to 6pm. Good good ! But for me is too far for me cause i will staying yishun back end of this february and i will sleeping girlfriend house for 2 week 1 time. Atleast okay for me to spend with her whole one day. Im happyyyy!

Yesterday our 9 month annivesarry, we ate chicken at arnolds,squid rings my most favourite and onion rings girlfriend favourite with her milo ice whip creaamm.. We first plan to watch a movie but we don't know what movie to watch. We have many plan but all turn wrong, we ate at arnold then went to grandlink to karoake after that buy empire donuts for girlfriend mum then went straight back home. At night i cry out of suddenly cause baby go batam for few days and i stress when i back home to yishun i scared baby will hurt my feelings and i really scared she will do the same things for the past time ,i really2 crying cause of this and i don't want her to leave me alone i have no one else sayang. Dy happy annivesarry to you and mira, i hope you two will last long kay sorry can't accompany you today, isaaap shesha! very sorry !


Boohoo ! Today i will update random post , haha . Now at cyber cafe with girlfriend . Panaass sia kat sini ! So BUJET their cyber cafe. today not in good mood cause baby had a talk with me just now about herself and its keeps thinking what she has just say to me just now, If you think that what you want and itsgood for you its okay with me i will let you go, okay . haiish. This month it make me soo stress need to settle all my problems one by one, one is settle another comes again problem until when can all problem will stop? huH? Grrrrrr ... TOLONG AKU!

♥ Through it all,